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Crushing those Crushes

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Crushing those Crushes

Someone I know had a “major crush” on an Indian movie star. When her friends reminded her he wasn’t even Muslim, that he was an idol worshiper, she was fine with it. “He’ll probably convert to Islam one day,” she would say. This same person used to love a particular boy band. She knew all their songs by heart, and hung their posters on her wall. She saved her pocket money every month to buy their merchandise, and spent so much time reading up on every aspect of their lives she could find. In parts of the word, this would be considered “normal” behavior for young girls.

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“A shroud has no pockets.”

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“A shroud has no pockets.”

Reading Surat al-Kahf, I sat with my Nana that Jumuah as he was having lunch. The phone rang, and the maid told me it was my mum. I thought my mum was alone and wanted me to come home for a few hours, but it wasn’t what I had expected. She informed me of the death of a relative who was also our neighbour. She died of bone cancer. May Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala have mercy on her soul and may He build for her a home near Him in Jannah. Ameen. I went to my Nana, who had just a few spoons of rice in his plate left, but I couldn’t wait for him to finish his food. With tears rolling down my cheeks like a mini waterfall, I told him what had happened. “To Allah we belong, and to Him we will Return,” he said.

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When Satan Came to Me

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When Satan Came to Me

It was early morning, and my mobile phone was ringing. I suddenly woke up. That was my friend calling me to wake for Fajr. I was about to get out of bed when someone started talking to me in my head. Someone told me to keep sleeping because life is not about sacrifices and waking up on time; life is all about chilling, having fun and waking up whenever I felt like it.

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Hey There, Hijabi

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Hey There, Hijabi

One day, I was going home from my school, sitting in my car, dreaming, sleep deprived, and thinking about working on my dissertation when something suddenly hijacked my thoughts. It was the reflection of a girl on the window – a hijabi girl. I kept looking at my reflection in the window, my headscarf, my outer garment and my makeup-less face, and I thought of why I did all that… Why was I covered up like this? When you wear the hijab for years (and all praise is due to Allah), it becomes your second nature. But that particular day, when I saw my reflection, my heart questioned my intent and so I had to answer it.

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Change is Inevitable

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Change is Inevitable

I was sitting on the balcony one day reading a book, when I saw a flock of crows, and they reminded me of something that happened ages ago, a time when I was only 5. I was at my grandfather’s place with a piece of naan (bread) in my plate. I went to the garden to sit on the swing and enjoy that beautiful spring day. I put the plate with the naan on the table outside, and sat on the swing. I was looking up at the sky, preoccupied with thoughts of how big and beautiful it was, when I was suddenly distracted by something that landed on the table: a crow. The crow took the naan in its beak and flew far, far away.

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