Sometimes… There Is No Glitter.

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A small deed can be like a rock dropped in a pool, sending out ripples in all directions.

Racking my brain for the past couple of weeks as I looked for something touching and inspirational to write about for IGIC this month, I came up with… absolutely nothing. No moving encounters with strangers (which happen quite often), no recent epiphanies, no major changes from my friends to write a post about and dedicate it to, nothing.

With finals approaching in a few days, life is pretty dull and monotonous. Weekdays slur into one another so that I constantly have to check what day it is on a calendar. It’s all papers and books and no time. We spend every waking hour doing i’tikaf at the library. Even the stuff you enjoyed learning at one point in class is now something you need to memorize and marvel at later. And yet, we are not miserable; it’s the way finals always are. It will pay off in the end, insha’Allah.

And that’s when I realized what food for thought I would share this month. Though I still adamantly believe that I should write only following a muse, sometimes, there are no glitter and sparkles to inspire you.  Sometimes, you just have to do things because they are right and because Allah commanded us to, and the reward will follow.  A lot of us wait to wear hijab, start another good deed, or quit a bad habit until we get some sort of signal.  Some sort of feeling.

But it’s naive of us to wait for a dazzling rainbow to become manifest before we think of taking the needed step.

Allah makes the path of obedience easy, always.  But that doesn’t mean it will be magical.  For some girls, wearing hijab or following any of Allah’s commands might require great patience, facing more tribulation than applause.  But that doesn’t mean we should delay wearing hijab or some other good deed.  We’ve accepted that many Dunya-matters (like finals!) aren’t exactly a piece of cake, but they are worth it in the long run. So why can’t we do that for some of our matters in Islam?

In Surat Taha, verse 132, Allah says:

And enjoin prayer upon your family [and people] and be steadfast in offering them. We ask you not for provision; We provide for you, and the [best] outcome is for [those of] righteousness.

So we are asked to be patient in establishing prayer- meaning that there is an inherent element of difficulty at times, even in our pillars of Islam. Sometimes, there is no glitter, no enchanted hijab floating beside your window, no life-changing event to turn your life around.

But sparkle a little of your own patience, and you will always shine.