And She Leaps


A little extra push for those sisters still struggling with hijab.

She toys with the idea of hijab, but something is stopping her, a nagging sound at the back of her head. She feels like she needs a personal cheer squad to get to her goal. Sometimes, she can even feel the petty thoughts contaminating her mind, stopping her from thinking clearly and making changes for the better.

Just for a moment, she wants to silence all the worries, all the inhibitions, all the reservations. Just for a moment. She wants the love in her heart to take over, to guide her to Allah and His obedience. She wants to do her best.

She opens the Book of Guidance which has soothed so many souls before, the Book which troubled hearts turn to for strength and resolve. She reads the ayah of Surat ar-Ra’d, which translates to,

Surely, Allah will not change the state of a people until they change that which is within themselves. [Surat al-Ra’d, 13:11]

Here it is, the encouragement she has been looking for. With these words, it is as if Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala is saying to her (what essentially means), “Take the plunge for My sake, and I will help you the rest of the way.”

For a moment, she lets go of the fear: the family members, the friends, the society around her, everything she’s afraid of. She lets go of it all. She takes a moment to consider her life as it is without hijab. And then she imagines her life with it on, a new, fresh start. She weighs these two lives side by side, thinking about who she’s pleasing in each scenario, thinking about how happy she is in each life.

Suddenly, she realizes that a life without hijab is no life at all for her. Just like a life immersed in any sin is no life at all.

A tear rolls down her cheek, and in that moment, she’s ready to take the leap. Without hijab, she may have the support of family, friends, society, all those influences which would have her think hijab was either a shackle or a crime. With hijab, she realizes she may have no one…

No one except Allah subhanahu wa’tala, Who…

…as, Ar-Razzaq (the Provider), provides for her in all matters and will provide her with strength and courage to wear the hijab, insha’Allah.

…as, Al-Muhaymin (the Protector), grants her protection from all types of harm and will protect her with hijab on, insha’Allah.

…as, Al-Mugith (the Sustainer), has sustained her thus far by His Will and has given her life until this moment needed to make the change. Now is her opportunity.

…as, Al-Wakil (The Ultimate Trustee, The Disposer of Affairs), would make this affair on which she traverses of benefit to her, insha’Allah. And didn’t she already trust Him?

…as, Al-Barr (The Source of All-Goodness), has bestowed her with so much good in her life, and insha’Allah, would only increase this good if she submits to His will and command.

…as, Al-Hadi (The Guide), when anyone sincerely seeks His guidance, He guides them, so He would guide her, too, insha’Allah.

She sits, wrapped in these thoughts of her perfect Lord, her perfect Master, thoughts which warm her being. And another humble reminder comes to her from a Hadith Qudsi, in which the beloved Messegner Allahu alayhi wasallam related that Allah said,

“If My servant comes near Me one hand-span, I come near him one cubit. If he comes near Me one cubit, I come near him an arm’s length. If he comes to Me walking, I come to him running.” [Bukhari and Muslim]

She recalls all the things in her life she’s done to draw closer to loved ones. Buying flowers for her mom. Giving her friend that necklace she’d wanted for so long. All this to show her affection and appreciation for them through her actions.

What about Allah? How many things had she done for Allah, to draw close to Him? And Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala said that if she came to Him walking, He would do much better by running (in a manner that befits His Majesty) to her.

So why wasn’t she drawing close to Allah by observing hijab? Why not begin with this small change within herself, in order to receive Allah ta’ala’s help to change even further? What was holding her back? And she remembers that ayah in the Qur’an,

“Has the time not come for those who have believed that their hearts should become humbly submissive at the remembrance of Allah and what has come down of the truth?” [Surat al-Hadid, 57:16]

And she leaps.