The End

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Now that it’s all over, how do you feel? In this brilliant guest post, sister Nadia shares her thoughts on Ramadan coming to an end.

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Maybe this is how we’ll feel when death comes to us… overwhelmed with regret, powerless to stop the moments slipping by, dismayed at how little we really did with the time we had, and so scared that the little we did wasn’t accepted by Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala for some reason.

The end of Ramadan is here and I feel all these things.

How did a whole month pass so quickly? Why didn’t I try harder and make more of an effort?

I wish I could go back.

I wish I could have more time.

I wish… I wish…

… and I’m strongly reminded of the ayah:

حَتَّى إِذَا جَاءَ أَحَدَهُمُ الْمَوْتُ قَالَ رَبِّ ارْجِعُونِ * لَعَلِّي أَعْمَلُ صَالِحًا فِيمَا تَرَكْتُ

“Until, when death comes to one of them he says “O my lord, send me back (to life). In order that I may work righteousness in the things I neglected.” [Surat al-Mu’minun, 23: 99-100]

Ya Allah… regret is a bitter thing, and it usually comes only when its too late to change.

And I do regret, every moment spent in idleness, moments that
could have been spent on the smallest of good deeds, when the ajr of those deeds could be multiplied beyond measure, a moment when Allah subhanau wa ta’ala might have looked down at me with mercy and my happiness guaranteed for all eternity.

But before I’m lost in those negative feelings, I quickly remind myself, that final moment hasn’t come yet. There are still 2 days left in Ramadan.

If you ask me what good are 2 days, I would ask you what good you can do in them? How many ayahs can you read from the Qur’an? In 2 days and 2 nights how many raka’as can you pray? How much can you give to others, of your time and effort and money? How many times can you raise your hands and open your heart to Allah to ask Him for forgiveness, mercy, happiness, ikhlas, guidance, unity for the Muslim ummah, help for our brothers and sisters in need all over the world, for Jannat-tul-Firdaws. How many times can you say “alhamdulillah”? “Subhan Allahu wa bihamdih”? “La ilaha illa Allah”? How many times can you send greetings to our Prophet salla allahu alayhi wa salam?

The truth is, 2 days are time to be forgiven for all past sins. In those 2 days you can repent sincerely to Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala and have all bad deeds replaced with good. In 2 days we have a chance to be one of al-utaqaa’, those freed forever from the torment of hell fire. For the best deeds are the final ones, and one of the sweetest days of Ramadan is the last, when our prayers are more fervent because we know this is our last chance.

There will be time for regret, when these precious days and nights have passed, but that time isn’t now.

Now is time to gather all our (remaining) strength, to reach for the reserves of energy and iman inside us to see this month out in shining glory. It’s time to make up in quality for what we lost in quantity, its time for sincerity and faith. It’s time to pour out our hearts to Allah, to bare our souls to him subhanahu wa ta’ala in duaa and munajah.

Like a runner at the end of a race, we can see those ahead of us beating us to the finish line, we can feel the seconds ticking away but we can also dream of victory. Its still within reach if only we can push ourselves a little more. And the closer we get to the end, the more hope we have that we will finish at the top, the easier it is to push ourselves forward.

It’s so close…

And our finish line is also drawing near, and we have hope, insha’Allah, that as the sun sets on the final day of Ramadan, we will have gained a fresh start with Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala and ourselves. A slate wiped clean to go forth into the coming months with renewed energy and stronger faith.

May all we have done this month be sincerely for the sake of Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala, and may He accept it from us and pardon us for our shortcomings in worship and grant us the ajr of Laylat-tul-Qadr. Ameen.